Peyton Kathleen

Baby is the size of: A CANTALOPE! (11.8 inches, 1.3 pounds) Baby's Development: It is wild to think that at 24 weeks, Naomi could be born and considered viable. Thankful to live in this time of medical advancement. Naomi's face is completely formed! She has her eyelashes, eyebrows, button nose, and heart lips. Her lungs will continue to develop and get ready for the outside world, and she will continue to gain weight and length over the next 15ish weeks!   Momma Symptoms: Feeling great but fat lol Weight Gain: +21 Random Life Things: November is shaping up to be a busy month with things that fill my heart with joy. Baby showers, parties, football games, and Thanksgiving... I love this time of year. 

 

 

July 2018 my ex unblocked me for the first time in weeks and texted me. He asked if he could come over to my apartment and talk. I was floored. I had spent a year being yanked around by him. He filed and unfiled for divorce...twice... would pull me back in, only to shut me back out. So when he texted me, he knew I was still in love with him, and still desperate to be with him.  I said yes, come over.  We sat on my bed in my studio apartment and talked for an hour. Then we slept together. I woke up in the morning with a text from him saying how special the night before had been, how he wanted to see me again that night.  I thought I was in a dream. I thought every prayer I had begged God for had been answered. I went about my day lighter than air, full of hope and joy. I texted him that evening to see when he wanted to come over. Blocked.  I was stunned. How could he do this, AGAIN? How could he stand to harm me like this, again? Had he not dug the knife deep enough t...

  Still a work in progress, so probably a premature post. But this is literally all we did this weekend, so I have to post evidence of our efforts. Bed: Front Porch Rustic Driftwood Twin  $543 Dresser: Soho Baby Chandler 6 Drawer Dresser $499 Beanbag: Big Joe Bean Bag Chair in Carmel  $86 Rug: Target $119 Letter H ($21), Triangles ($40), Skull (16), Cactus ($10), Picture Frames ($15), Bear ($20), Mirror ($98), Fiddle Leaf Fig ($110)- Hobby Lobby Mini Fiddle Leaf  ($15) and Mini Lamp  ($10)- Target Paint: Benjamin Moore Nightfall $45 Curtains ($95, rods $60) and bedding ($70) should be in this week. Curtains are from Society6, which I have never ordered from, so we'll see. Bedding is from WakeinCloud, also a first time purchase. 

This has actually been an incredibly healing process so far. I defaulted in my divorce proceedings three and a half years ago. I felt so powerless compared to Erik, and was like "Fuck it, do what you want, and get what you want, you always do anyway." He had parents with endless money backing him, (they love bullying people with finances), so I knew I didn't stand a chance anyway.  That being said, I never had an objective counsel hear my side of what happened. And more important than the state of Texas, my Church, gets to hear my truth. It is a very vindicating feeling.  As I'm going through the questions, writing about the horrible things Erik did, I can't stop praising God. Every memory I recall and write down, I thank Him endlessly for removing this evil man from my life. People told me over and over that one day I would be thankful for Erik's abandonment, and they were right.  

Baby is the size of: A GRAPEFRUIT! (11.4 inches, 1.3 pounds) Baby's Development: Is it just me, or does a grapefruit seem smaller than a coconut? Regardless, Naomi is packing on the weight, (just like mommy) and she will be gaining about .2 pounds every week from now until birth. Her lungs are developing airway branches in preparation for life in the outside world. Additionally, the bones in her inner ear are hardening, strengthening her hearing and allowing her to know what side of her head sounds are coming from. She is so strong and active, I can feel her movements so clearly now, and even see them on the surface of my tummy! What a magical time.  Momma Symptoms: Swollen ankles and feet, difficulty sleeping, and just general discomfort. We have officially entered into the "oof" stage of pregnancy, where bending down and moving too fast are just uncomfortable and awkward. Weight Gain: 19 lbs Random Life Things: Last Friday, I had my 20 week sonogram (2 weeks late, sorry...

I have had this annulment paperwork sitting in my inbox, untouched, for over a year now. When I first went through the paperwork, I was absolutely shocked at the sheer amount of it. How detailed everything had to be, giving such specific, personal information, reliving some of the lowest lows my heart has ever known. And I just couldn't do it. I couldn't even fill out my name, DOB, and address.  Now, I'm an active member in my parish. I have my first born son baptized. I plan to do the same with my daughter. I donate monthly to my church, I inspire my friends and family to attend mass with me, and I feel the presence of Christ most strongly when I'm consistently honoring His holy day. So by God, I should be allowed to closure and finality of an annulment. I should be in clear conscious and in good standing with the faith I hold so dear.  Sometimes it takes a little fire and anger and sense of injustice for me to get my ass in gear. So, I opened the document, and within ...

This morning I couldn't stand the thought of getting out of bed. I've slept horribly the past week, getting up at night because I can't get comfortable with my big belly, unable to fall back asleep for hours.  This morning I couldn't stand the thought of walking into my classroom and teaching the same lesson I've taught, over and over, for ten years. This morning I felt like if I had to explain compound and complex sentences one more time, I'd scream. I'll lose my mind if I had to open up The Outsiders to page one and start reading it aloud....again.  How can I feel like life if so chaotic and yet so monotonous at the same time? I feel like I never have a moment to just sit and think, yet somehow life feels like it is moving at a glacial pace.  This morning I cried. Hard. I cried out all my feelings to Andrew, most of them making no sense to either of us.  I said, "I feel like I'm waiting for my life to start, but I don't even know what I mean ...

Henry      Age : 2 years and 3 months old Favorite Song : Peaches by Justin Bieber Favorite Toys : Tricycle, blocks (mommy, build a house with me!), cars and trucks Favorite Foods : Salmon, chili, French fries, popsicles, ice cream Loves : Going to school, Mimi and Pop, saying "baby sister!", snuggling in bed, kisses, bath time, and cowboy boots Hates : Getting his diaper changed, taking medicine, and breathing treatments Personality : Sweet, funny, smart, rebellious, active, curious, loving, helpful Cute things I love : Prays before dinner, wants to Facetime different family members every evening,  

Baby is the size of: A COCONUT! (11 inches, 1 pound) Baby's Development: Naomi's grip, vision, and hearing are all strengthening. All five of her senses are sharpening, she's rolling and flipping around in mommy's tummy, and possibly even playing with her umbilical cord! She has broken the 1 pound milestone, and will continue to add much needed fat throughout the next four months.  Momma Symptoms: Um... hi acne?? My skin has been breaking out like CRAZY the last week. I haven't changed anything about my skincare routine, so the only logical explanation is to blame baby girl! But, I will gladly take imperfect skin for my sugar baby doll any day.  Weight Gain: +17.5 lbs Random Life Things: I finally have my 20 week scan on Friday (two weeks behind on appointments!! my OBGYN is booked to the brim!) During this ultrasound they will check Naomi's major organ systems, ensuring that her heart, brain, skull, kidneys, bones, hands, and feet are developing as usual. If no...

  Baby is the size of: AN ENDIVE! (10.5 inches, .8 pounds) Baby's Development:  Momma Symptoms: Weight Gain: +16 lbs Random Life Things: 

As a general rule, I believe that no one cares what you eat. Even Instagram fitness girlies, trust me when I tell you, no one is interested in your meal prep; they're here for your thirsty gym pics. Whenever I see bloggers do a "What I Eat in a Day", ummmm SKIP. Fist of all, I don't believe that is what you eat on a regular basis. Second of all, what a boring concept for content. HOWEVER I'm writing this because literally no one reads these posts lol I have been feeling great in this pregnancy up until the last couple of weeks. And it has ALL been gastrointestinal discomfort. When I called my nurse hotline to discuss how I was feeling, she asked me about my diet. I told her -very honestly- what I have been eating. The first thing out of her mouth was, "You HAVE to eat more protein and fat."  If you have been pregnant. there is no need for me to tell you how hard it is to eat eggs or a chicken breast, especially in the first 12 weeks for pregnancy. The si...

Baby is the size of: A BANANA! (6.6 inches, .6 pounds) Baby's Development: Naomi is growing like mad! Next week she will be measured from head to toe, instead of head to rump. She is sleeping and waking at a regular schedule; loud noises from the outside world can even startle her awake! Momma Symptoms: Had a small health scare this Wednesday and Thursday, but thankfully everything is 100% fine. I took time to rest and rehydrate, and feel completely back to normal. Baby girl was wiggling and moving and none the wiser! Weight Gain: +15 lbs Random Life Things: IT'S A GIRL!!! I truly can't believe it! I am so happy, I wanted a little girl so badly.