Peyton Kathleen

Wednesday November 6th- 166 lbs Wednesday November 13th- 163.8 Goal Check In: I lost 2.2 pounds this week! The optimist in me hopes this will be a pattern, while the cynic in me thinks it means next week I won't lose any weight lol we shall see.  I worked out 4 times this past week- alternating between running (2.5 and 3 miles) and 21 Day Fix videos. I have a hard time finding time to workout, and 30 minutes seems to be the max amount of time I have, so these videos are really perfect. Still breastfeeding and pumpin' like a champ! I read somewhere that every ounce of milk you produce burns 25 calories. If that is the case then I'm burning like, 500-600 calories a day. I nurse when Henry wakes up, before I drop him off with my mom, pump twice at school, nurse when I pick Henry up, and before he goes to bed. I think I produce 20-24 ounces of milk a day. It is a fine balance to eat enough to keep my milk coming in strong while also trying to lose weight.  Two week...

I was 39 and a half weeks pregnant with a 9 pound baby in the dead heat of a Texas summer, and I was miserable. So when I showed up to what felt like my 100th OB/GYN appointment, and my doctor told me I wasn't dilated and she didn't think I could deliver without having a c section, I started bawling. I was terrified of having a major surgery and not getting to experience vaginal delivery. We sat and discussed everything and came up with a plan- she would induce me one week from the appointment, let me try to labor and deliver on my own, but we would go through with the c section if things did not progress. The day before my due date, July 13th, Andrew took me in to the ER because I hadn't felt Henry move that day. When they hooked up the heart monitor and I heard he was fine, I cried tears of sheer relief. (a lot of crying went on my last week of pregnancy) The monitor also showed that I was having contractions, and the nurse told me I was dilated 1 cm. They decided to ke...

When the beautiful, hilarious, and iconic Jessica Simpson posted about her 100 pound weight loss after having her baby, for the first time in months, I felt hope. I gained so much weight while I was pregnant with Henry, and I felt like the only one. So for a celebrity to come out and openly talk about her struggles with weight loss was exactly what I needed to get motivated. I'm not sure what my weight ended up being, I refused to let the nurses tell me (lol), but I am pretty sure it was somewhere around 210 pounds. Yikes. Now, my babe is 16 weeks old, I am back at work, doctor cleared to work out, and ready to get in shape! I am currently 165 pounds, so I think I have already lost about 45 pounds. I am still about 20 pounds heavier than I would like to be, and after 9 long months of pregnancy, I can't wait to feel comfortable in my own skin again.  The past couple months I've been keeping track of my food on My Fitness Pal, running, and doing Beach Body workout...

I'm in a transitional period in life and it is uncomfortable. My entire existence I have had goals with timelines, dreams I could work to achieve, and a life-plan that was conventional and certain. I graduated high school, went to Texas A&M. I studied to be a teacher. I graduated, got a teaching job. I fell in love, got married. While married, I laid more goals with timelines (have children), dreams I could work to achieve (perfect my educational craft), and continued to pursue the conventional and certain. But then my husband left me. My goals, dreams, and desires left me as well. I was not longer "Peyton". I was Sadness. I was Despair. I was Grief. There was no future to look forward to. No life I wanted any part of. Things that used to interest me seemed pointless. I couldn't bare seeing friends. I would wake up, go to work, come home, go to bed. Everything felt painful and dark. I am no longer living in those dark days. However, I am still ...

I know his name. I know his face. I know his scent. I know his quirks. Yet I still do not know who he is. However, I can tell you who he was. He was my best friend. My love. My confidant. He was the man who quashed all my fears and insecurities when he put his arms around me.  He was a dedicated employee who rarely complained about work. He was devoted to his friends.   He was the man who ensured me I would be a good mother. He was loyal, smart, and funny as hell. He loved HBO, German Shepherds, and time at the gym. He was obsessed with his Sonicare toothbrush and protein powders. He took pride in his appearance, his wardrobe, his physique. He would shy away when I would comment on how handsome he was. He was the man who sent me flowers on Valentine's Day and promised me I would never have a February 14th without them. He was my everything. He was all of these things, and yet he was the man who left his new bride two weeks before their one year wedding anniversary. He was th...

"I can say, with great certainty and absolute honesty, that I did not know what love was until I knew what love was not." "Since walking through my own divorce, I have come to the conclusion that God hates divorce because of the immense pain and suffering it causes his children. It is far less about sin and far more about his father's heart for us." "The reason God allowed him to walk away is because you prayed for a good man, and he wasn't it." "Even the darkest hour has only sixty minutes." "When people treat you like they don't care, believe them." "Let go of the marriage you thought you had. You are in love with a lie, this is just the truth that you don't want to face." "This too shall pass"

We are officially your stereotypical newlyweds who go out and buy a puppy. Baby Heidi was born on July 4th, 2016. She is a black and red long haired German Shepherd and has officially stolen my heart! About to be adopted! Vet visits are exhausting Heidi with our 8.5 year old GSD Luke Heidi is my first ever puppy so I am learning a lot as I go. Erik has been so helpful and patient! Our pup has the sweetest little personality and has added so much life to the Jaynes home!