Peyton Kathleen

Baby is the size of: A CANTALOPE! (11.8 inches, 1.3 pounds) Baby's Development: It is wild to think that at 24 weeks, Naomi could be born and considered viable. Thankful to live in this time of medical advancement. Naomi's face is completely formed! She has her eyelashes, eyebrows, button nose, and heart lips. Her lungs will continue to develop and get ready for the outside world, and she will continue to gain weight and length over the next 15ish weeks!   Momma Symptoms: Feeling great but fat lol Weight Gain: +21 Random Life Things: November is shaping up to be a busy month with things that fill my heart with joy. Baby showers, parties, football games, and Thanksgiving... I love this time of year. 

 

 

July 2018 my ex unblocked me for the first time in weeks and texted me. He asked if he could come over to my apartment and talk. I was floored. I had spent a year being yanked around by him. He filed and unfiled for divorce...twice... would pull me back in, only to shut me back out. So when he texted me, he knew I was still in love with him, and still desperate to be with him.  I said yes, come over.  We sat on my bed in my studio apartment and talked for an hour. Then we slept together. I woke up in the morning with a text from him saying how special the night before had been, how he wanted to see me again that night.  I thought I was in a dream. I thought every prayer I had begged God for had been answered. I went about my day lighter than air, full of hope and joy. I texted him that evening to see when he wanted to come over. Blocked.  I was stunned. How could he do this, AGAIN? How could he stand to harm me like this, again? Had he not dug the knife deep enough t...

  Still a work in progress, so probably a premature post. But this is literally all we did this weekend, so I have to post evidence of our efforts. Bed: Front Porch Rustic Driftwood Twin  $543 Dresser: Soho Baby Chandler 6 Drawer Dresser $499 Beanbag: Big Joe Bean Bag Chair in Carmel  $86 Rug: Target $119 Letter H ($21), Triangles ($40), Skull (16), Cactus ($10), Picture Frames ($15), Bear ($20), Mirror ($98), Fiddle Leaf Fig ($110)- Hobby Lobby Mini Fiddle Leaf  ($15) and Mini Lamp  ($10)- Target Paint: Benjamin Moore Nightfall $45 Curtains ($95, rods $60) and bedding ($70) should be in this week. Curtains are from Society6, which I have never ordered from, so we'll see. Bedding is from WakeinCloud, also a first time purchase. 

This has actually been an incredibly healing process so far. I defaulted in my divorce proceedings three and a half years ago. I felt so powerless compared to Erik, and was like "Fuck it, do what you want, and get what you want, you always do anyway." He had parents with endless money backing him, (they love bullying people with finances), so I knew I didn't stand a chance anyway.  That being said, I never had an objective counsel hear my side of what happened. And more important than the state of Texas, my Church, gets to hear my truth. It is a very vindicating feeling.  As I'm going through the questions, writing about the horrible things Erik did, I can't stop praising God. Every memory I recall and write down, I thank Him endlessly for removing this evil man from my life. People told me over and over that one day I would be thankful for Erik's abandonment, and they were right.  

Baby is the size of: A GRAPEFRUIT! (11.4 inches, 1.3 pounds) Baby's Development: Is it just me, or does a grapefruit seem smaller than a coconut? Regardless, Naomi is packing on the weight, (just like mommy) and she will be gaining about .2 pounds every week from now until birth. Her lungs are developing airway branches in preparation for life in the outside world. Additionally, the bones in her inner ear are hardening, strengthening her hearing and allowing her to know what side of her head sounds are coming from. She is so strong and active, I can feel her movements so clearly now, and even see them on the surface of my tummy! What a magical time.  Momma Symptoms: Swollen ankles and feet, difficulty sleeping, and just general discomfort. We have officially entered into the "oof" stage of pregnancy, where bending down and moving too fast are just uncomfortable and awkward. Weight Gain: 19 lbs Random Life Things: Last Friday, I had my 20 week sonogram (2 weeks late, sorry...